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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

So sorry. . .
Morning morning... reached work at 6.55am. Very early. But only starts work at 8.00am. Now, waiting for my Mc Donald delivery for my breakfast... Mega Mac Griddles... wow!!! hahaha with Milo Iced. But I'll keep d Iced Milo for later. Sarinah, she'll be eating Big Breakfast Meal and Pei Hong will be eating Filet O Fish meal. So hungry now... hehehe

"How??? Like it???... hahaha super duper breakfast!"

So cold, this morning.. i guess it rains early morning just now. And, it gonnna pouring again. Yeah... So cloudy.

Actually, something happened yesterday. I got up with some unfriendly communication thru email with my elder sis. Yeah. I know it really sucks! But... It happened between 11.30am to 2.30pm. What good about me? I'm ain't tryna be angel to anyone. I'm just trying to voice out how I felt. In the end, she trying to voice out how she felt. So when is it going be my turn??? she just don't know how I really loved her. How I really need her. I'm always around for her when she needs me. Why is it not when it comes to my turn? haiz..... i'm just don't want to say about this anymore. Am I being bullied by my people surrounding me? or what?. Like my sister said, even my bestfriend leave me. But, in the first place, does "she" deserve to be my friend? Friend whu needs me when she only needs me. Even I showered her with my money. Borrowed? Yet not returning. What else? I guessed my sister knows it well. People are making full use of my dumpness. Oh god. Reading mails from my sister, i'm burst in tears. Just like a child. I'm so paiseh cos everyone looking at me. Even my Project manager asked me wheather I'm ok and is there anything to share. It just so hurt and sad. Am I to blame, again and again............???

If my sister happen to read this, I'm just wanna let her know. I don't mean to be harsh to you. Just that I'm out of control. And I just trying to voice out how I felt. For all this while I've been keeping quiet. Neglected. But, I really love and adore you always... I'm sorry...

***Having a sister in your life can either be a wonderful or terrible experience, depending on your relationship. If you have an older sister and you are a girl, she can often show you how to navigate the way through some of the more difficult areas of growing up.


~ { 7:28 AM }
LennY


Monday, November 24, 2008

Waiting for. . .
My weekend sucks!!!! kwang kwang kwang.. its ok.. but i'm looking forward for this coming weekend!!! weeee!!! gonna rock ma life.. ha ha ha marrini sms me dis afternoon asking me, "saturday wanna go karaoke???" hehehe kita sekrang dah gian berkaraoke... sing sing sing and sing... hehe dun care wheather our voice is nice or noise.. hehehe
oh, talking about weekend... i online msn on saturday night since no one ask me out :( or some of them got to work. So i'm so damn2 lonely and bored... When I online msn, "she" there... online too. But, "she" never even say hello to me or what. I'm still wondering, how come, about 15 years plus friendship just end like dat. Something must be going wrong somewhere. haiz... sometimes, i just don't understand some people.. is it hard to save a good term friendship.. yet, shit do happen. But again, why do we got to let it happen and happen??? Y no regret, guilty or...... oh god, i'm just lost of words... yeah, I admit, I do missed you at times... but... *tak bermakna itu semua lagi. . .I just felt that 2008 is just so sucks! so so sucks! I see true colours of my love ones after one and another. I'm just so sick of it. DUH!!! I just don't want to think about it. I'm just anxiously waiting for 2009. I need some changes/adjustment.. Change in myself. I want something better this time round... please god! please....! I just don't want to shed any tears anymore. NO MORE! I want to keep it strong. Yeah, I will.


My last word to her, "If you're over me. I'm already over you. Its all been done. What else to do. I'm a bird that already flown away. :)"

Today at work, hmmm nothing much.. Monday bluessss... and "HE" wears blue as well... whu is "HE"??? I will let u know later on wakakaka. I don't know, I'm so "miang" wear my heels to work today. And you know what??? BLISTER everywhere! I'm suffering. Never wear heels to work!!! yeah! and you know, one of this project manager, an ang mo, who I called him "TIKUS". His hand is so "gatal" today. Keep playing with my ringing alert bell on my table. When it rings, means that I'm not at my desk which I'm supposed to be at ma desk most of the times.. So lucky that MD is not around. If not, I die. Sure complaint one. And my MD which we called him "PAK MUK" is on leave till 1st December! YESSSS! ARRRRR!!!! hehehe I loikeeeeeee... :)

~ { 8:57 PM }
LennY


Saturday, November 22, 2008

I'm backkkk again... and again...
Hey all bloggers!

I'm back again... hmmm after sometimes... well all started from d movie THE PERFECT MAN that I just bought it yesterday after work. AWESOME! Hilary Duff, she's so beautiful and cute and more... tempting to see all her movie after Cinderella Story.

Hows life? As for me, I'm fine.. weekend again!!! i'm just loving it.. after my tired days... "duh!" Happy working. New job. New profession, and good try in shipping line. 4 months now. Wow!!! not bad huh. well, gonna talk more about my work place as days goes by, soon... hehehehe

All I want now is, HOLIDAY. To relax myself... Actually, i'm kinda unwell with surrounding.. yup.. y??? haiz, i don't know how to start... can u gimme a chance to explain it slowly?? i mean, slow by it every new post??? sorry, my english is just so bad! hmm i just need a break! 18th Dec 2008, i'm going off to KL. With my sister's fiancee and friend and my friend too. Shopping, munching, rubbish...! hehehehe away from work, away from some friendsss.. my getaway.. hehehe well, i'm counting days down... sign off for now... see ya soon! muaaacks!

~ { 2:31 PM }
LennY