"How??? Like it???... hahaha super duper breakfast!"
So cold, this morning.. i guess it rains early morning just now. And, it gonnna pouring again. Yeah... So cloudy.
Actually, something happened yesterday. I got up with some unfriendly communication thru email with my elder sis. Yeah. I know it really sucks! But... It happened between 11.30am to 2.30pm. What good about me? I'm ain't tryna be angel to anyone. I'm just trying to voice out how I felt. In the end, she trying to voice out how she felt. So when is it going be my turn??? she just don't know how I really loved her. How I really need her. I'm always around for her when she needs me. Why is it not when it comes to my turn? haiz..... i'm just don't want to say about this anymore. Am I being bullied by my people surrounding me? or what?. Like my sister said, even my bestfriend leave me. But, in the first place, does "she" deserve to be my friend? Friend whu needs me when she only needs me. Even I showered her with my money. Borrowed? Yet not returning. What else? I guessed my sister knows it well. People are making full use of my dumpness. Oh god. Reading mails from my sister, i'm burst in tears. Just like a child. I'm so paiseh cos everyone looking at me. Even my Project manager asked me wheather I'm ok and is there anything to share. It just so hurt and sad. Am I to blame, again and again............???
If my sister happen to read this, I'm just wanna let her know. I don't mean to be harsh to you. Just that I'm out of control. And I just trying to voice out how I felt. For all this while I've been keeping quiet. Neglected. But, I really love and adore you always... I'm sorry...
***Having a sister in your life can either be a wonderful or terrible experience, depending on your relationship. If you have an older sister and you are a girl, she can often show you how to navigate the way through some of the more difficult areas of growing up.